"This is 100% really me asking you, without sarcasm or whatnot. Why do you want Sherlock to do drugs so badly?"
100% me answering honestly, I truly don’t know. I’ve been fixated on it since the first episode. I’ve tried puzzling it out and the best thing I can come up with is that it’s one of his biggest flaws. You know? It’s something that makes him human. Every hero has a downfall and for the longest time I thought his biggest downfall was addiction. It still kind of is.
Before this episode, the other things that caused Sherlock to be flawed were his being rude, arrogant, and quite cold. But it never seemed like Sherlock counted them as flaws, or like he even minded. However all of that has changed. Sherlock has changed. And it makes me want to cry because he can see all these traits and it’s beginning to make me feel like he hates himself because he can’t change them. Except he can, and he has, and he can still grow day in an day out as long as he has his doctor around to set things right. Which, of course, is why it is so damn heartbreaking that his doctor is going to leave him. And Sherlock knows that too.
Anyway, I’ve totally gotten off track. Again, the only reason I can fathom for my being so desperate to see his drug use is because it makes him human and it shows that there are things even Sherlock Holmes cannot overcome. The show makers have made it pretty clear that they’ve left his drug use behind, that it won’t be a point they’ll visit often, but I guess I’ve got a twisted mind and I want to see more of it.